Hi Johanna,
I was able to find the forum through Julie's link today. I will simply say that I fully appreciate your presence and contribution. I look forward to sharing more on the forum in the future.
Namaste,
Rain

I appreciate your messages and quote from Julie on waiting and surrender. I remember as a small Christian child I was taught a simple prayer.to say at bedtime. "Now I lay me down to sleep, I pray the Lord my soul to keep. If I should die before I wake I pray the Lord my soul to take."
I still say the prayer sometimes at bed time. When I had surgery I surrendered my self to God and felt that an angel was assisting with the operation. Suctioning out my chest during the open heart operation. I think I half gained partial consciousness and the angel I saw was a young mortal man suctioning out my chest. I would like always to be able to surrender and wait. My greatest successes have been the few times I was able to do so. Often I am like the monkey that sticks its hand in a jar to get the treats it wants and can no pull it out because it won't let go. I want happiness and health for my family and friends and a few people I do not even really know. It all leaves me chasing my tail on the wheel of life.

Whether I am taking in other peoples energies in a healing capacity, whether I am encountering the forces of darkness, whether I am in a sacred meditation or gathering, or in my daily life activities, I find that no matter how extreme the energies to be transmuted - it is my souls mission to go through the experience.


Dear Johanna

I can empathise with you on the above, because I had to go through the same; it has been part of my soul growth absorbing unexplained energies. Part of my experiences came in tears (well floods); to the point that I was told I was drowning in them. The grief ran so deep I despaired of ever being able to heal. It felt like I was grieving for life itself. I now realise I had to work through a lot of karma (maybe many lifetimes) but there was something that I grieved for that was unexplainable at the time.

Recently I have been made aware that the’ unexplainable grieving’ was for ‘What was to come’. Maybe part of my experience was to feel the suffering of other souls. I am sure that Julie will give an explanation.


Julies answer

At another level, the will of God is the only protection desired or needed. It determines all that transpires, and one's prayer to serve Divine will and to be aligned with the purposes of light is the protection. At this level, one is joined with the mission of the Christ in intent and purpose, where all becomes subservient to the desire to become a willing servant of the Divine, even if this service involves a taking on of negative energies for the purpose of learning and/or transmuting these energies for the benefit of the Earth.